Earaches and Frustrations

I finally went to an Indian doctor and got ear drops and antibiotics for my ear ache

Living in a foreign country is difficult:

I know the past month this frustration has been elevated particularly because I just got back from the US and I have also had an ear infection and cold the past week.  However, Satan uses being a foreigner in many ways, including fear.  Something as simple as fear of going out to the market or to talk to someone because we can't speak the same language or they might not fully understand my Hindi or we don't have anything to talk about.

Another recent frustration:

I am so tempted to be complacent because sometimes I think that nothing I'm doing really matters (maybe we all feel that way sometimes). I've noticed that when I'm not doing something well or I'm putting it on the backburner, it means I have come to believe that it doesn't matter.  This past week God gave me a reality check on many aspects of my life - from teaching Victoria to relationships with Indians.  I hate half-assing my life...pardon the language. Not because I want to please other people, but because it means that somewhere along the way I've come to believe the lie that "it" doesn't matter.

Victoria matters. Jeff and Trish being confident that their daughter is learning matters.  My friend Chhokey, who isn't a Christian, matters. My friend Munnu, who is a Christian, matters.  Indians knowing Jesus matters.

Your story tells everything about you...your materials, actions, and words.  I want to live my life like I really believe those things matter.